To My Lord

I saw the light, in 2010, for the first time in my life
I know who I am, I know what I stand for
There are people around me using me and my name
taking my thoughts, putting it over to other younger people

Sometimes I wonder why
What did I do?
What did I do to deserve all this pain it gives

They are writing about bullets in their head and similar things to my recent thoughts

They are talking about bodies they need in the night, whilst havent touched me yet in real

They are talking about bodies in pain, with bullets they have planted, but they dont take respons and stay honest

They are claiming, after all my years (about 17 years) on the web as an honest woman, that I am a liar

They are faking movies, sounds, recordings, and trying taking ownership of my music, and my life idea, the thinking idea I wrote many years ago

They are updating sites, where I cant defend myself (facebook)

They are using my ID, and my thoughts putting it to other people

Lord, I wonder, what did I do?
Lord, I know I am a sinner when I make bad words when I am upset, but one thing is for sure, I am not a liar and I will never sign it for any price in the world. I am not sick in my head, I have a university education. I just have people in need of your care around me. They need to care themselves to get a believe, and stop harassing and force others to love them, to stop using others property without permission, and let them give themselves based upon their own will and love, they also need to learn that to hurt someone that much as put that one into sickness by their own egocentrical way of acting should be forbidden. If they only could excuse themselves and try to put it right, but instead they are making it worse by claiming that others are liars when all they have to do is to find a doc and a scan of the body.....

Lord, I know I am not always good, I am learning every day, and I had a lovable teacher, my radiohost, the Swedish one, from my town, but what I now suffer I ask you for help to easy the pain and make justice.

Amen
/Sivan