But An Innocent Child

shameful pain
being unwanted
will never go away
Inner blemishes  
deepest .. darkest secrets
forever embedded within my frail heart
every single, unforgotten scar .. a separate story
silent, eternal disturbances are mine
special things I call my own
that\'ll never be taken away
hidden doubts shan\'t surface for all to view
life\'s complexities .. reluctantly, I accept
realizing they\'re impossible to outgrow
I\'d received hate instead of love
needed .. desperately
my feelings won\'t show
I\'ll pretend everything Is fine
hoping people will leave me alone
saving their analysis for themselves
or perhaps some unfortunate soul
whilst I continue  
searching ahead                                                      
never once looking back
forgetting .. for then I was
but an innocent child

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